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i noe , i noe , its been a while since i've blogged . i noe , eu miss being a busybody and noeing stuff abt me , hehx ! ;D

so .. i feel tht i should just clear smth up right now , to all those who read my blog , ( there are very few , cos i havent been advertising it like most others do .

READ : yes , i noe i have been open abt having an eating disorder and have blogged abt it here , but , i would not like ppl to come and ask me anything abt it .. so eu may think :' then why did eu even blog abt it in the first place ? ' well . its my blog , and its only mine for a reason . i can write abt watever i want . i dont really mind blogging abt my ED cos not many ppl noe abt this blog .. but , to whoever reading this , i would appreciate it if eu dont come up to me and ask me questions regarding this topic . ur understanding is much appreciated ;)

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okieee , lemme start lamenting .

ohmyfuckin'gawd .

so , today i came to maths class , like , 2 minutes late , (cos someone borrowed my lighter) , and sat down . then the teacher yelled at me . he was angry tht i handed up a blank worksheet (did i mention it was a graded test ?) graded test. tests are graded . no i mean the marks will be included in the exam , gahh , nvm . so yea .. then he went on , to say tht : if i wanted to work as a model , i have to study too , most ppl in tht industry are bimbos , i can only work as a model till 25 (not really tht true) , i can only get signed on at 18 ( NOT TRUE ) and tht i can be vain at a later age ( wtf does tht have to do wif anything ?! and im not vain ! wait , fine , i may be vain , but in skl , i dun really care abt how i look. ) and he was yellingggg3 and the whole class went quiet . and at the end of his 'speech' i turned to my left and told my classmate ' i didnt deserve tht' and a few ppl giggled . hehx .

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so , i wanna take private o's . but , turns out i have to go transfer to private skl THIS YEAR . i cant do it next yr . fantastic . i dunno wat to do . i need to go talk to my skl counsellor , im too confused abt this right now ..

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so , omg out of nowhere , lets call this person , 'X' . ( ex bf drama -.- ) so , X called me . while i was having breakfast . 6.05 am , and asks me to pon skl and meet . and i was like , 'no .. why would i wanna meet eu anyway .. we dont actually noe each other *we do , but like, malas nak explain arhqq! * . and blah2 , then he says he awol , and hes gonna 'surrender' (surrender sounds too serious for such a thing , lol .) in the afternoon .. gonna go db .. then im like *kinda sad for him , i've got to admit* but i didnt want him to see righ thru me , so yea .. blah2 .. ohgodd .. then he was like 'sad' tht i didnt wanna meet . so then he was like , so eu mean eu dont wanna tok to me or meet me anymore ? and i was like : err .. mm .. WAT ELSE WAS I SUPPOSED TO SAY !

okiee .
thats it .
(ooh , happy april fools , just thought i shld wish everyone . then again , i dunno if its smth eu wish ppl , gahh . wateverr xD )
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